Dear Ramon,
Looking back at myself I realized our life changes so quickly. There is a point of time in life when we have absolutely no idea what we are going through and we lose the vision of our future. We find ourselves standing alone amidst all the crowd. Alienating ourselves from all the traits that ever defined us, all the moral values, all the beliefs we were composed of, we catechize ourselves about who we are.
Encaged in the numbness of our heart we start moving with the stream like a dead fish. We hold on to the situation that we are put into. In the act of finding our identity we become the slave of our own spiritless thoughts. We keep stabbing our heart with the catastrophic visualization of failures of past repeating, premonitions of future, anxiety, stress, responsibilities and eventually have grave repercussions of ourselves with no inner voice or warm embracing soul left inside.
We forget the taste of courage, the strength of fearlessness. The fearlessness we showed when we participated in a competition, or performed on stage for the first time, or stood against a bully at school, or even the silliest childhood fights we fought over pencils and other petty things.
We forget how we saved some time for ourselves everyday that was only ours or let me put it in a better way, how we mastered time and schedule so that we could watch our favorite cartoon or magic shows or any superhero shows or any detective series on tv or play an extra hour after school even during exam hours, even when we were piled up with assignments and homework and all the stress our tiny innocent minds could handle.
We forget to fight back our extreme fears and opt for what we really want. I mean what can feel worse than literally drowning in water but this is how we learnt swimming right? We forget to take the risk of drowning to learn swimming.
Pursuing for happiness in owning big things we forget to notice the little things happening around us. The happiness we felt when a cute little puppy followed us all the way back home from school. The happiness we felt when we could identify a constellation for the first time by looking at the stars. The happiness we felt when we got an extra chocolate on our friend’s birthday. The happiness we felt when we saw the first beard growing or in my case when i had my first actual haircut!
Looking back at times when our little innocent mind understood nothing, made me realize that it at least understood himself. It understood real happiness. It understood Life and blossomed but as we are ageing and gaining wisdom to understand everything but ourselves, are we actually growing?
Encrypted Souls 
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Interesting thoughts…we are losing ourselves more as we are maturing.
I also wrote a post sometime back on what should be the purpose of our life, so we think in ways that can make a difference to the world and ourselves!
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Thanks 🙂 I Would love to read that.
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well said
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Thanks 🙂
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Food for thought here. Life is all about conformity and moving along collectively is seen as a norm. Then society creates certain benchmarks for success. One who goes through the usual mundane grind of earning money, doing things as we are supposed to, one is safe from being called a non-conformist. Mindsets are set in stone and do not see beyond what we are conditioned to see. We have created limitations and boundaries, without realizing, we are in a bubble which is restricting.
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The weirdest part is, what we get is what we give. The bitterness of society that we are forced to accept and live is what we pass on to the people relying on us and then we name it as “survival”. It’s like we all are moving in a circle from ages but what we fail to understand is, we are society and what we do, whether follow the same footsteps or make a new way, builds a society.
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Rightly said, snigdha, it’s a vicious circle, if we want to walk out of it, there are so many things attached to it that we fail to extricate ourselves from it. Expectations, as we have come to realize is a major aberration and seriously, modern education is hardly shaping minds these days. But, all said and done, if one chooses to live away from all this, although will face lot of flak and may have to go solo in life, a courageous choice can make a difference. One must have the will and resolve to do it, it is possible.
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